I'm still here

Hello everyone, I'm still here.

Just taking a break from blogging.

Any spare time I have is being used

toward getting ready for Duckies

graduation party. I'll be back soon.

I did take some time last week to

take the kids fishing. I just had to

share this picture of Buster holding

the little fish Bubbas caught.

Isn't he the cutest kid ever!



Yesterday I was the mom who.........

• fed her kids cereal for supper after they had eaten McDonald's for lunch.Yuck!
• got her daughter to softball practice 20 minutes late.
• arrived to her sons baseball game after he had caught a fly ball and made a double play, but now he was sitting the bench because he's one of the younger ones and it was someone elses turn to play.
• made her other daughter go to the baseball game in her socks with no shoes, because she decided to get in the van and kick everything she possibly could.
• came in the house after taking shoes from daughter and, because no one was looking, threw the shoes across the wreck room, hitting a bowl of peanuts, which flew all over the room that she did not have time to clean up before she left.
• cleaned up peanuts off the floor as soon as she got home from game. Which were now covered in ants!

I was also the mom who..........

• got up 15 minutes early to take a shower so she could cook eggs and muffins for her kids for breakfast.
• Sat at the Dr.'s office for an hour and a half with four kids because her 3 year old woke up saying his ear hurt. (who turned out to have an infection in each ear)
• went to her church to make a "I'm proud of you" video for her graduating son to be played during the church service to honor him.
• who unloaded 4 kids and ran walked very fast into Walmart, twice, to use the one hour photo to get prints developed so she could work on senior posters for her son today.
• sat for 45 minutes fighting with 2 toddlers while her homeschoolers went to their swim class, then did it all over again while they were at their gym class.
• sat patiently with her daughter as she (daughter) tried to argue with her about how she was supposed to hold her book while she did homework.
• never lost her cool as she sat at her sons ballgame with her totally disregulated daughter, who had just had a total melt down at home and in the car. As her daughter kicked the bleachers she repeatedly told mom about the wonderful Mothers Day gift she was making for her at school. (Stupid Mother's Day. I can guarantee that was the reason for the totally disregulated night.)
• did get to see her son be put back in the game for the last inning and catch a fly ball causing an out.
• did it all alone because Thursday nights her husband works late.

So why, when the positives outweighed the negatives, did I still feel so bad when I went to bed last night?

We Like Wednesday

We like to play games together.

 Last week one evening we didn't have

electricity so the kids decided to play charades.

Bubbas is acting out changing a diaper.

Tator is acting out lightning.





Prom weekend and other stuff

Well my hopes to get back on my blogging schedule last week didn't

turn out like I wanted them to. Between sick kids, prom preparations,

shopping for graduation party decorations, planning a graduation party,

oh and don't forget the evening we actually had at home, the power

was out, and lastly, the fact that my internet did not work for about 3

days made it very hard to do anything blogging wise.

Prom was last weekend and it went very well. Duckie's girlfriend

looked beautiful (we'll call her Belle.) And he looked very handsome himself.

Check out his shoes, he thought those were the best. He

has grown up so fast its hard to believe he graduates in less than

a month.

I also finished reading The Limits of Hope by Ann           
Kimble Loux. It was a good book about a family
that adopted 2 little girls and the challenges they faced with
them. I could really relate with Ann, her not knowing how to parent them.
Not understanding why they chose the behaviors they chose.
Although now there is so much more information out there then I thought
there was years ago. It still makes it hard to parent kids from
 hard places. It's just such a hard thing to understand.  

Tator is doing ok right now. I think getting her meds figured

out has really helped. She does pretty good through

the week, but the weekends are hard on her. Without her

school structure and I also think being a "family girl" is truly really

hard on her. She's just so afraid to trust any of us.

Mother's Day is coming up so i'm sure she'll have

a hard time with that. Last year instead of flowers or a card

from her, I got a puddle of pee, so we'll see what's in store for

me this year. I do see little glimpses here and there, signs she wants to

love and be loved. I guess I shouldn't be discouraged i'm

not seeing it as fast as I'd like to. God is in control, my mother

likes to remind me of that all the time and I do believe all things are

possible with him. I just need to continue to trust him.